I try. I really do. I try to be fully present in conversations.
I try to lock on to the person talking. I try to listen to each word. I try to respect my conversation partner. I try to deeply listen.
I try, and often I do.
But there was this conversation I was in a couple of weeks ago when, try as I might, I was not fully present. And all of a sudden I had this startling realization that I was in the middle of a conversation and I was not focused.
Have you ever had that feeling?
I was disappointed in myself. I felt as though I had disrespected my conversation partner.
It has been a couple of weeks and I still remember. I don’t want to forget the feeling.
I am going to keep trying. I’m not going to give up on myself.