This week I have been considering the importance of patience, particularly with how my prayers often reflect a lack of patience. I want what I want. I want it now. My prayers can so easily slip into demanding for God to do my will instead of being in God’s presence, knowing Him, and seeking His will.
The following prayer means a lot to me.
“I call to you, O Lord, from my quiet darkness. Show me your mercy and love. Let me see your face, hear your voice, touch the hem of your cloak. I want to love you, be with you, speak to you and simply stand in your presence. But I cannot make it happen. Pressing my eyes against my hands is not praying, and reading about your presence is not living it.
But there is that moment in which you will come to me, as you did to your fearful disciples, and say, ‘Do not be afraid; it is I.’ Let that moment come soon, O Lord. And if you want to delay it, then make me patient. Amen.”
–from A Cry for Mercy by Henri J. M. Nouwen